Survival can be summed up in three words – never give up. That’s the heart of it really. Just keep trying. – Bear Grylls
When there’s no choice left, it is indeed a choice but a choice without an option. And that’s where survival comes in. For some or most people, survival becomes the choice by default when there is no other choice available. We all need to survive especially living things like us, even the non-living things need to survive at least for a designated time (e.g. Mostly, a condominium must withstand 50 years before it crashes, have people evacuate it or build a new one).
My predicament is nothing compared to what other people are experiencing. But it came to a point when I was just dragging my feet, my whole body, literally just to get to work. While it is still a blessing, a part of me feels that something’s wrong and I just have to get out of this rut. I haven’t gotten out of this pothole yet but I will soon because I have to make things happen for me. If I don’t make it happen, it will never happen! Have you felt the same way at one point in your life, too? 🙂
What happened is that I am doing something totally different from what I have applied and signed in the contract. I don’t mind doing it because it is also a chance for me to learn something new but what’s worse is that they don’t even train or equip people (although that happened to me before). I was put in boiling water when I was asked to talk to a client and they informed the client about my position (new position that is not in the contract) but I was not even aware of it. Yep, right then and there I have to function as a personnel holding that new position.
I talked to my boss and HR manager regarding this but I was informed that their culture was for the person to wear many hats. Some of my friends have decided to leave the company and they found that the grass is really greener on the other side. Actually, people won’t be looking for other greener pastures if theirs are green and alive. Not that they don’t water it but because they only have one choice left and that is to survive. Myself included.
For the time being, I just feel grateful that I am still swimming afloat. But I have to leave before the boat sinks or else I would drown and might not be able to save myself. I am on to finding new opportunities but at this moment, none has come yet. I always remind myself not to settle but to keep on trying until I find something that is valuable to me — something that is worthwhile for me as I continue with my journey.
It won’t be now but it’s going to come soon because I am making it happen little by little. For now, I just have to survive, do what needs to be done, learn stuff and enjoy the company of new friends I’ve met in this dystopic place. I have learned to see the good in the bad. That way, I can survive. 😉